I can't just say no...I mean, the whole world of my peers tells me that it's a bad idea. Even my mind is reeling with the bad outcome that this could have. I have to stay strong and keep up the brick wall that assures the world looking into me, especially her, that I am certain that this is an okay thing.
NO! This can't be. Gah. I mean, what am I supposed to think in the matter?
Taking a look into your history John, what do we see?
Oh yeah...that...and that...and that too.
C'mon John. It's a different situation right?
No.
Okay but you do have faith in her as a person right?
Yes...Of course I do...It's just...
Just what?
Well, no one is infallible...
Yeah...I suppose so but...I mean, I want her and I need her to face this. I guess that there's a couple of different ways that this could pan out...
On one hand, she returns to this place that she has known to arms, that may or may not want her and then realizes that this is what she has been missing for so long. It's the easier route in the worldly sense. In that, there's more to claim and a smoother transition into each new experience as this is something that has been running for quite some time. She returns to you to tell you this and then you fade into the world of countless voices.
Wait wait...What about fighting for her? You know, "fight a bitch"?
Her call really. You know us. We're the kind of person that will allow a soul to take whatever it wants as it pleases. However, we wont let it have us at the same time that is desires something else.
Yeah yeah, I know. If she wants something else, then she can't have us too...
Right. Now, on the other hand it could go something like this.
She returns to the situation and sees what it is that's being played forth and then realizes that there's something elsewhere that she is holding on to. In realizing this, she could either stay in an uncommitted to the moment sense or simply walk away. In either case, it will be a defining moment for a pathway in the future.
How so?
Well, either she realizes that she can or cannot be friends with this person...Or she decides that she wants the old feelings again...That she wants more than the friendship, and the warmth of something old and familiar.
Lovely.
Yeah...So...now what?
I suppose you sit back, be a brick wall and say that you're not concerned one bit and see how it plays out.
You know...
Author: Asian Sensation / Labels: Who talks to themself?
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Except that you aren't a brick wall. I'm not one to play off metaphors and such in these matters. I want to take this as a 'Hey, I'd rather you didn't.' and tell him right now that it's not happening. I need you to say it outright, however.
Also - if for some completely unforeseeable reason I'm in a position to be fought for, you sure as hell better fight a bitch.
Your prior history will NOT repeat itself with me. More than likely it's just an overreaction and he's innocent in his gestures and then we both feel like retards. So..I'll go hang out after work - unless you don't want me to. Then I'll come home to you the one I love and want. Then we can laugh about how we wrote epic blogs and blog comments over absolutely nothing. Then we can get on with life in whatever direction it takes us.
Fine fine. I'll go get my gun to prepare to fight said bitch(es) Perhaps we'll laugh about it then. See you when you get home. I love you.
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