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I have no idea.
Birthdays and information and music and thoughts and sex and food and laundry and then dishes and money and candles and cats and jobs. Tabbed browsing much? I'd say so. It's a muddled mess of things up there. Then again, muddled sounds so passive. A still puddle that's been recently stirred so that the mess below darkens the water so that you can't see your reflection on the surface. That's not what this is at all then. This is a torrential series of rapids that crash upon the rocks of the world. There's far too many droplets of thought splashing this way and that to even try to gather it all up into something organized. I suppose I'll just settle for what I can.
As it seems that I can't really write about anything by true words and images, I have to settle to voice it all by secondary thoughts and what it reminds me of. Feelings. How do we paint them out beyond just simply saying it.
I love you.
I hate you.
This makes me happy.
This makes me sad.
Instead we do it by code.
It was a warm wind that carried me up into the clouds of your embrace. This is an embrace I'd like to keep forever.
I wish I could tear your soul from you and crush it into something so minuscule that no one would ever be able to recognize that you're alive.
An exhilarating moment in which nothing else in the world mattered. I was flying free and had no intention of ever coming back down.
The storms of my heart crashed against this cage that I was locked in. I was thankful for the thunder that washed over my sobs and for the drops of rain that masked the tears falling down my face.
We know what it means but we keep simplicity locked away for none to see. I think I'm going to offer the decoder ring this time for the public eye to see.
I was supposed to celebrate my birthday last week. I didn't. I was fired though. Someone told me that they loved me. I didn't believe them. Someone else told me that they loved me. I did believe them. I made dinner. I like to cook. I drank a lot...I like to drink. I don't hate cats. I'm surprised. I missed my computer...I got my computer.
And it all just goes downhill in a very boring spiral from there...I think that the convoluted mess is a better bet.
Not that it's anything new but this ends suddenly (just like all the rest of them). I'm going to go do dishes.
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