How I see it all...

So last night was definitely not carried out as expected. I truly did have the intention to attend my event, bowl super well, win a million dollars, drink a bit and then, go home. It didn't exactly happen like that but I'm not complaining.

Rewinding a bit. Anyone that bothers to read this knows that I am having some..."troubles" per se. Ever notice that you feel that there is a task that you need to carry out but no matter how good your intentions, it's not going as planned? That's the case here for me. I'm in a relationship with my best friend and simply recognizing the differences there begs me to take a step back and re-evaluate the whole thing. Can you imagine loving someone and truly believing that you're in love with them for who they are but know that despite this, you aren't for them? I think that's the thing that I have been responsible enough to recognize and even mustered the courage to take action in trying to make sure that preservation of that friendship takes place...

Hours have passed since I have set to writing this. I'll have to re-organize my thoughts and come back to this. I'm sorry.