I look around and see that things could be way worse than what they are now. Things have gotten a little crazy lately and I can't help but to notice that I've embraced it to keep myself from dwelling too much on things. I guess now that the storm is over, I can move back to living in a life that I am able to somewhat feel like I am managing. I don't mean for it to seem like didn't like where I was before, but rather that I was living in an Eden that was slowly changing into a very lonely hell. Have you ever had so many people standing around you and somehow felt like you were th sole soul amidst an ocean of nothing? "We've all got friends but we stand alone" I can understand that more now as I have realized just how much of a solo game this has been. I have a roommate that I love dearly as he is a brother to me. Despite his odd and very questionable ways, there is common ground and lessons to be learned in it all. As for my recently changed relationship, I love her to death but I find that I feel like I'm by myself all the time. It's not her fault...There's just something that doesn't connect. I'm not sure what to think when she offered to change her world into mine but I did realize that in doing so, she won't be the same person anymore. I think I managed to actually get the words out and to be heard this time. I am under the impression that she's leaving for VA (Virginia, not Vagina) tomorrow night. When that happens, what's next? Am I single now? I guess I need to have another talk to get that sorted out.
As my thoughts seem to be doing lately, they have faded out and I'm now working in a chat. Le sigh. Hurray for tomorrow being a day off. I can certainly use it.
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