How I see it all...

So here I am posting a blog. That should at least make one person I know happy. Despite having the itching to write time and time again, I have simply chosen not to. It's not that I didn't have the desire. I think the issue is that I'm starting the spiral downward into idiocy that I always do when my life follows the path that I so enjoy. All things aside however, I am finding that I have a problem. Several actually. I think I'll be vain and focus on the one that bothers me most at this moment. I'm fat. Yes, I know. I'm that guy that was always perceived to be on the thin side of things with no hope of gaining any weight. The metabolism it out the window. The intellect went right out with it. Thank God I still have moral foundation and decent night vision. About being fat though, I was at a party tonight and realized that I hate what I've become physically. I guess that somewhere along the line I tossed self discipline out the window and just started filling my face. I suppose that I could get away with saying that I am eating as a reflex to fill some other void though. The problem there is that "I feel fantastic". I think I'm going to blame it on Stream still. On to other things? Right. So I'm very much in love with a certain someone and it's been a bit over four months now that this has been the case. I expect that this bit is merely a shoutout to her in that I do love her very much and wouldn't have my heart any other way. She might feel like she's losing me or that I'm slipping away but I would assure her that this is not the case. I think that I'm just taking a deeper look at myself these days and reflecting solomnly on what I see. That's absolute worse case scenario. So as there's nothing left for me to think of as I'm awake after 4 hours of sleep, I'm going to sit here and let my mind continue to rot away. That way, there'll be less here for the zombies to eat when they attack and so they'll come after you guys. I hope every one is doing well despite the wave of unemployment. Maybe we'll joke about it some more with another round of Apples to Apples. Don't forget the big fat cocks.