How I see it all...

The following is a list of things that aren't important or can not be had because of the association that they bear. I understand that some of it may seem to be nonsense but it's okay. This is my investment to my "forever" and that's what matters. My yesterday can be no more for whatever is is and my tomorrow is the only thing that counts. It works right? I mean, it's like a memory card that has no data on it because it hasn't been written and all of what it had previously has been erased because it's not important no matter how long you intend to keep it. Let's get on with it.

1.) One green bracelet. This item was given to me as a sign of good luck as it doesn't ever seem to fail. As it's one of the bigger causes for this purge, it's number one on the list. I'd offer it to any of you that want it to bring yourselves luck but it's mysteriously vanished.

2.) One colored picture of a Stitch. I can understand why this has to go but we all know that Stitch will still be my homeboy.

3.) One stuffed Hawaiian clad Stitch. This guy is absolutely adorable. I hate to see him go but he'll be fine I'm sure. He doesn't need to eat or drink or even sleep though he does cuddle well. He won't even make a mess to clean up after and even tries to help out by supporting printers during moves.

4.) One black and silver side bag. This bag needs to go due to the fact that it was given to me in an assortment of other things for my birthday by a previous girlfriend. The bag has served me well in carrying many things for many different tasks. Lately, it's been trusted with carrying a $1300.00 laptop.

5.) One black leather wallet. This wallet was given to me as a present for my 18'th birthday from an ex-girlfriend. It's been used to carry so many different things from licenses to identification to money and such. It's been with me for 6 years now. Oh how time flies and how things within can endure. I hate to see it go but as it was part of me prior to March of 2009, it has to move on.

6.) One black undershirt. This shirt has to go because it was purchased during a summer excursion back in 2002. I know...A shirt for someone my age that's worn seven years later? It's been a keeper but it's time to let it go as it was worn during that summer of a forbidden love.


I know that there are many other things in my day to day that seemingly sit off to the side that bear a huge level of history for me but I can't remember them at the moment. I'll come back and start removing things as they come. It's one of the important steps of getting rid of everything else that may have once mattered and being a new person each and every time you wake up. Ever seen 40 first dates? That's how it should be.

A moment of notice when the world stand still
A quickening of breath aroused by the thrill
A heart beating so fast but no one cares
A moan is the sound that fills the air
A brush of my lips against her flesh
A flush of color rising in her chest
A thrust of pleasure driven by pure desire
A scratch and a bite that takes us higher
A pure white void when it all falls away
A perfect moment for for each passing day

It's another blog and another day. The difference in the matter is that the days have been passing but the blogs haven't been published. It seems more than ever now that I am unable to find clarity in my thoughts. Lately, I've been seeing so much of everything else in the world that I really have no business being involved with. Aside from that, the story is all the same from the last time. I still can't find a job. I still can't find myself. I still stand alone in a world where those that are supposed to do the least are actually doing the most. It's kind of funny how that works. Someone tells you that you can count on them and then they're not there. Then, it's those that have neither promised nor offered nothing in the past that are there to catch you when you fall. It's like having a sudden saviour in the matter. I suppose that in good time, it will all work itself out. In the meantime, I suppose I'll just be doing the regular. I'll keep looking and keep myself busy with the trivial tasks of feeling like I have a purpose. Despite how I never expected to associate with many of them ever again, I am bringing people from a past back into my world. It isn't that they ever truly left as we still chop chop and such. Now, we're going to take it to another world where fireballs and swords and undead prevail. It can't be anything but fun right? We'll see. In other news, I think that a sudden and severe impact that I have experienced more than once in my recent life may have actually caused damage. Either that or I need to stop thinking so much. You'll understand what I mean I suppose. I'm hoping that it's the latter. Well, I suppose that's it for such a short notice in a blog. Here's to the fifth of May and a nice day outside. Here's to being tired but not wanting to sleep. Here's to love. Here's to breakfast with a truly amazing person. Good day and take care.